Ep 83: Confessions of a Deconstructing Lifelong Christian (GH)

Can Christian deconstruction be healthy? In this Greenhouse discussion, Brian Fisher, Kyle Moody, and Dr. Tim Boswell continue the conversation from Episode 82 by exploring deconstruction, control, the Wall, and the painful work of spiritual formation. Together they consider whether deconstruction always means losing faith, or whether some forms of deconstruction may be part of Jesusโ€™ deeper work in the heart. The conversation draws on The Critical Journey, the stages of spiritual formation, and the image of Eustace Scrubb being โ€œdescaledโ€ by Aslan in The Voyage of the Dawn Treader. Brian, Kyle, and Tim discuss how disappointment, unmet expectations, church frustration, suffering, and the loss of control can expose hidden ideas that need to be dismantled and rebuilt.

BY Brian Fisher

February 19, 2024

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Healthy Christian Deconstruction

Kyle and Dr. Boswell jump into the studio to further explore last week’s episode on the quality of a deep disciple who releases control. Ouch.

The guys debate a current buzzword in Christianity: “deconstruction.” Is there good deconstruction and bad deconstruction? What if some sort of healthy tearing down and rebuilding of elements of our faith is necessary and helpful in the quest to train our hearts to release control? Do we embrace it, or do we do our best to avoid it?

Let’s dig in.

This episode continues the discussion from Ep 82.

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